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So friday went to the stc fairrrr, which was pretty tight EXCEPT for the face my ride ditched me just because i went and hungout with my friend rachel & they didnt even have the CORTESY to let me know and call me, they just straight up left me there. So i had to find my own ride, this is the second time in a row ive been left at the fair. for the last two years..pretty messed up. Anyways i get my license on thursday & ive decided im not giving people rides everywhere, im not a freakin taxi..so if youre my friend and you think just because i have a car im gunna take you everywhere. Get it right, im not :]
speaking of cars i get my car today! wooooooot. it looks like one of those beach volkswagon cars but its actually a toyota camry, 91'. holllllllerrr<3
haha iloveit. But anyways, saturday rayna, me, alivia, & monica went to the beach..which was FREEZING !@#$% but it was tight cause i got darker a little and me and alivia took sweet pics :] then later on jon came over when we got home and me him & alivia went to ethans and hungout with him & robeeee.
So yea it was pretty fun. Sunday alivia went home and i was going to go to church but i was exhausted :/ I reallllly need to start hitting up church again, its been over a month that i havent been on sundays. But ya so the rest of my day on sunday really sucked tho i was in a horrible mood, cause i discovered something about someone and my feelings toward them have changed..& im really mad at myself for it..so i pretty much just stayed in my room & listened to dashboard foreverrrrrr. & i called ethan cause i needed to talk to him about my issue but he was out at the beach at some restaurant..
so i went to take a shower and he called so i missed it and i was tired so i went to sleep and put my freakin cell on vibrate..which was a mistake just cause ethan called me at like 10:19 (haha thts the date of my bday) & i hit my head on the lamp, soo tht didnt turn out so good, then i couldnt talk to him about what i needed to cause i was afraid?
itsucks :/
but i got to go, so talktoyou guys laterrrrrrr cuhs<3
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im starting to have feelings for this certain awesome guy :]
ohhhh great. I dont know if i should though, i mean i just broke it off with aaron..But yeah.
One main reason i broke up with aaron was because he just didnt get me and i didnt feel the way he did towards me. But MAINLY it was mostly because i hadnt known him enough before we went out. Funny how you realise something when its already said and done with. I mean i just started noticing this about myself. Im not big into developing a relationship thats completely random, where i dont know that much about the guy..
Also, ive really been trying to have a stronger bond with jesus christ. I also thought i was a pretty good christian* but ive discovered theres alot more to it than it seems. I dont want to be just a believer, i really want to develop and intense relationship with jesus christ, one where i can do anything and everything i set my mind to through him. Most guy friends i know arent really like that; & its complicated when you just want to find that someone out there whos at the same level as you, and also goes by the same morals. For example i DEFLY am staying a virgin until im married, i dont drink (& i probly never will), i dont smoke or do drugs, im pretty what they call "straightedge?" which is totally fine with me, but with most of my friends they think its stupid..its just hard you know? peer pressure does suck, even when you dont give in you face losing alot of your friends. Ive also decided i dont want to be old when i get married, my mom told me young marraiges are quite hard to keep together, but im my opinion i think if i found the right guy, a die-hard christian who respected me and my beliefs, it wouldnt be "impossible".
ive seen alot of people get married when they were around 20, and thats the age i think would be awesome for me.
i have no idea why im talking about marriage haha but i gotta go, im in photo like alwaysssss and im missing out!
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| eventful weekend..literally |
[13 Feb 2006|09:35am] |
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So Friday night was so awesome :]
the lock in at seminole community was great. we went and saw pink panther first..which in my opinion..SUCKED! haha, then we went out to the churches property on markham woods road, which had to be the freakiest thing ever..haley, me, ethan, alisha, and alivia all went on a tour around the properties and through the freakin scariest houses/shack/barn EVER. it seriously couldve been one of those horror movie settings, it was perfect for it. Later on i wasnt in a good mood and i didnt mean for it to show, but it really did and i kinda let it out on everyone and gave people the cold shoulder..i know i sound bipolar but im not, but all last weekend was pretty dramatic and just hard so i guess i couldnt really hide how i felt about it? So yea Alivia asked to talk to me and i kinda just let everything go and opened up and spilt my heart out you could say. Just so many things have been going on it seems and im defly not the kinda person to have my heart out on my sleeve and let everyone know about anything and everything going on in my life, im pretty introverted with personal matters..but this was just too much to bare so i let alivia in on all of what was happening. I kinda felt bad cause she cried, too. but it feels so much better at least knowing i have someone there for me who not only listens to whats bothering me but also gives me advice. So maybe at times it is good to be vulnerable? hah. After the bonfire was over on the property the popos came as one of their helicopters circled our property haha. it was really funny. But after that was sorted out we went back to the church and just chilled the rest of the night. Ethan and me talked about jobs and hes actually considering applying at publix too, which would be awesome, id actually have someone there i knew :]
then saturday i went home like at 10 and slept til 3 and went shopping when i got up and bought a million shirts and a dress, all for a good deal too. haha. Then aaron called and he picked me up and we went to colonial to see when a stranger calls with alisha and alivia. It was SOOO freakin scary haha. i love that movie though. Sunday..slept, missed church..AGAIN. not good i need to get in the routine of going on sundays again this is like the 4 time in a row. But ya then one of my best friends stopped by unexpectatly, alyssa..and we got our swimsuits cause we were going hottubing? ya. kinda weird cause it was in tuhe 40's yesterday, but it was alrite i guess. I found out somethings about her that im really upset about though..for example she smokes pot now, which really bugs me, and shes been constantly hooking up with guys..i mean i dont know if constantly is the right word? but just lately alot of guys it seems..and im so straightedge compared to her which kind of limits what we do when we hangout together..But anyways what really took the cake was the fact that the two guys we hungout with wanted to have a freakin 4 some. TOTALLY disgusting. & the one of the guys got pissed off at me a bit cause i defly wasnt interested, i had a boyfriend..BUT even if i didnt i wouldnt EVER do that crap..SO ya later on i just decided to go home cause they wanted to go to some chiks hotel and get drunk and stuff, i wasnt down so i asked to be dropped off..Later that night i called aaron but he was at status so i just told him to call me back later, when he did i decided to tell him i wanted to just be friends and we broke up..it kinda sucks but i dont see him as a boyfriend and he deserves someone better..so i explained that to him and he understood. im so happy i got that off of my chest, even if our 5 months was the day before..
but ya. i gotta go, photo class is awesome and im missing it<3
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[10 Feb 2006|09:36am] |
im sitting right by arielle.
she is apart of the BSG. holler. we are a new group with hot songs and hot faces and hot moves.
haha jk. were cool tho. so ya i quit lacrosse, and im doing weightlifting now, and working out more with brent.
me and aarons 5 months is tomorrow..yep.
BUT im kind of crushing on this guy i know. it just sucks and im confused about the whole deal so moving on..
Ive started to go to Planet beach starting 2 weeks ago, and im just trying to get dark again for prom. im going to like 3 this year!
hollllly crap, thats gunna kill me but whatever.
im also in need of a job so if anyone knows any place hiring lemme know :]
but im out. tonight is gunna be awesome! the bsg is hanging out with everyone else at seminole community, and i cant wait.
ANNNNNNNNDDDD i get my license in 20 days Approximately! haha im sucha dork
but yea peace homies<3
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| So yea. |
[24 Jan 2006|09:43am] |
this years been full of surprises but most of them being awesome so its all good. Me and aarons 5 months is coming up, but im breaking it off..i think on v-day. but yea, anyways im in lacrosse right now and i threw up 3 times at practice yesterday already but its gunna get me in good shape. Other than that friends have been awesome and i cant wait til i get my license in less than a month cause then i can go to the beach as much as i want..but thats it for now
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| hmm this has been on my mind for like 2 wks now hahah...i thought maybe i should write about it. |
[25 Jun 2005|10:26pm] |
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yea so im sick of players,
pimps, thugs and super nice guys.
i think i want a boyfriend.
hahah but im so picky, i dont want anything serious. i just wanna have someone to hangout with this summer that i would have a completely awesome time with.
i havent met anyone like that.
i need a guy like this : assertive (but not toooo much) sarcastic. funny as shitttt =) someone who wont PLAY with me cause ill have my brothers kick your ass and if you think im joking ask me what happened with the dude i had a thing with last time mmkay? someone whos into sports, like soccer and lacrosse or something. a surfer would be awesome cause i surf. someone who can have fun anything, if its either lounging around my house with my laying on the couch watching a movie like old school lol, or if were out somewhere like citywalk. i want a guy who will Savor every moment with me. whos real. who isnt a perve. who likes me for me. who thinks im fine the way i am. id like a guy whos resposnsible too. i want one stable but not too stable, cause guys like that just get lazy and too comfortable with themselves. i want a guy who will be a challenge to me. who will open me up cause i dont know whats wrong with me when it comes to certain guys but im so freaking shy. i want a guy who will just come up from behind me when i least expect it and hug me. a guy with an awesome personality would be awesome, too. id like a guy who can encourage me to get over my fears like being so self concience about my body and how i act around people. I just want someone who isnt expecting me to be a slut or obssessed with them cause thats not right. i want a guy who loves to flirt..with me haha. i dont like guys who are TOO nice..i like them sarcastic and meen in a teasing kinda way..its confusing i know. but im weird like that ! ! ! lol, um and i dont like guys who are huge and built its gross..all my bros are like that and that would be odd if i dated some guy like that haha. i dont like CONCEDED guys. they think theyre so hott but sorry buddy thts a total turnoff and if youre reading this thinking im a bitch for saying that then why would you waste your time reading this? but yea this has been on my mind lately. i really would love to get to kno a guy whos like what ive said, and a tan guy would be nice. NOT TO SOUND shallow but im tan, too. and lol i love tan people. i want a guy who i can talk to about anything and when i say anything i mean ANYTHING hahah.
well im done with that, i just needed to defly update my journal and this was on my mind... o yea so today sucked i got into a car accident with MY car.
so yea its been fuckkkked up. this thursday im going outta town tho til monday so im happy about that. hehe.
P.S. vega i hope everything turns out alright for you i know you probly dont wanna hear this but theres always someone out there who has it worse.. and FUCK all those people out there who are like that. im sorry for pissing you off in the past and i hope everything works out. i promise it eventaully will...much love to you and everyone else out there whos an awesome person <3
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damn i never can commit to this thing.
so anyways schools gunna be done and over with FINALLY! in less than 2 weeks. im so stoked more beach time. on saturday went to the beach got some some got tanner woo! the waves sucked which was the downside but o well theres so many other oppurtunities for better ones. this weekend im going to the beach with raynababy and then the weekend after that megs & me are leaving right after the last day of school and heading off to st augustine and the beaches up there. BLAH i cant wait!!! :)
but yea on a sad note im really sad cause alotta people are going to be graduating from my school soon and also from other schools like lake mary, im not good with things like this. i get emotional about it. but yea i just hope this summer will be the best cause i wanna try alotta new things its just im kinda afraid? so anyways tho i think i have a crush on someone but it sucks cause theyre going to be moving soon so im kinda upset, and i dont really want them to know that i have a crush on them cause ya tht might make hanging out with them a little tense and awkward if you catch my drift. o yea and im probly getting kicked out of health academy but honestly? i really dont care. ive never been into it. what i have been into lately is just hanging out with coolass kids. this years been pretty sweet for me. ive made alotta new friends had many awesome experiences, others i not as great but overall this years been great. i hope this summer will top it. im sure it will.
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haha so its been like a month since ive updated this ooo yea go me!! instead of half a year lol..nehoo sooo ummmm yea last week was valentines day and the guy i liked (mike) asked me out..so to make a long story short we went to the movies and saw the worst movie ever. me and megan were idiots too, we bought redbull and gulped it down before the movie and were hyper asses all night. nehoo so yea the movie was freakin PHANTOM OF THE OPERA....? WTF?! seriously you DONT bring your gf to a movie like that..but from now on ive decided im never going to go to a movie that long and boring again. i feel bad though, you know how i just mentioned mike asked me out last week for V-Day ? welll hmmmmmmm....hah i broke up with him sunday nite. ive discovered something about myself and thats one reason why i broke up with him...lol. im not straight. kinda weird and random to mention but yea..and I thought I was SHY?! hahaa you havent seen shy til you've met this kid. o well. i dont think i wanted to commit to a long term relationship yet neways lol..and he wasnt my type u could say, too. i think my type is someone who doesnt hangout with freshman girls, whos not into drama movies and musicals, someone who isnt YOUNGER than me. i am looking for someone who is crazy cool tho, is funny as hell with anything they do they can just make a joke outta it but yea, someones whos not conceded, and most of all someone whos older. drives. AND most importantly is in love with doing anything random and having fun with it. it would also be nice if the guy surfed real well and loved the beach most of all, too. but yeaaaaaa idk why im writing this..but like i said earlier im gunna *try* to keep up with this thing yoooo. lol.
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wowe so yea its been how long since ive pdated this thing? o well whatever. i saw my friend post her livejournal link on myspace cause she wanted ppl to see her pics so i did then i totally remembered i had had one of these things...wowe im officially defly an idiot. but neways i guess i mighttttt update more or whatever you do with this thing. i just need to figure this thing out more it still confuses me.
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| guh yesterday and today |
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Hey its been awhile. but hey wut can i say im not a big internet fan of updating entrys. neways soo yesterday i did something i never thought i would do in my life. i asked alex out. only thing is i got his message thingy from his cell so i asked him out over that. and s0o0o0o far i havent gotten an answer. i think it may because he was working like usual. but i dont know. what i do know is ive never felt this way about any guy. there's something about him. he's the funnest to be around outta all the guys. Even when were not talking or anything and just sitting there being bored i dont mind it im just glad i get to see him and see how he's doing. but im really nervous about how he's gunna react. i personally think he's too good for me. the people i know tell me not to think that way tho..so i dont know. Lauren told me he wasnt and that there's no reason for him not to maybe like me because im pretty.nice.fun. but still..just the fact he hasnt gotten back to me yet makes me think he doesnt want to. o well. but see the thing is..i dont care if u know if he did say yes ..well i do but see the thing is i just want to be around him cause i always have a good time it doesnt matter. but i think he's really busy it seems with work and skewl. i miss him alot. it really sucks not seeing him as much. him and lauren made mt top worth going as well as myra. but i guess he's changed...like the people said who worked there when you leave you'll probly lose the mt.top experience and stuff. and it seems like thats happened cause during the summer and stuff i thought we had became really close good friends but i guess i was wrong. again. i just wish i could've told him i liked him earlier maybe that one day during the summer i had planned to. but i guess this was gunna happen. but then i think he didnt get my message because today tyler told me he and alex talked at lunch and he didnt say anything about it. or maybe he just didnt wanna. guhhh. i thought myra changed me and she has with my self esteem and everything but the only thing i havent overcome is being honest and telling people the way i feel about them. hint g0o0o0osh u guys have no idea how frustrating this is. well tomorrow im either going to the beach at least thats one good thing thats happening..or if not that im going to call lauren to see if we can hangout like we did last week or hangout with kaylyn. lol tonite was sooo funny gurly haha we both fell lol. and then today at skewl rayna! geese i didnt see you running up to hug me that was funny tho. lol aww i luv u gurly! im so0o0 happy we have more classes together this year! yey! but im gunna go now and just see if he even cares to call me back. ive heard from *sum* people he has been acting differently lately as if he's to good for alot of his friends? i didnt wanna say this but now im started to think thats true. o well. ill talk to all u guys later. o yea im happy! my birthdays in a month. haha i still havent given alex his bday present when was it? like august 28th <..im sure he probly doesnt want it tho..> lol but yea neways im getting a job! YeAHyEaH immm sooo happy! in less than a month baby! w00t. lol. i know it sounds really dumb but ive been wanting one. lately ever since as long as i can remember lol. i hate being at my house. and i hate cramming on my mom for cash i hate it. even tho i dont ask for much its still not right to me. hopefully it will be somewhere i wanna work. i kinda wanna work at like a restaurant. like bennigans or sumthing. or maybe sumwhere where there's alotta people like maybe the mall. but the malls annoying so i dont know. i was talking to this guy in pacsun though and he said he'd give me an application haha funny thing is that was like a month ago he thought i was like 16 or sumthing already lol. but i cant wait. also when i get my permit im gunna be allowed to drive. my mutha's letting me drive like bot you know far distances but like to church and the mall and wal*mart hehe cause im like 2 minutes from there lol. well ill ttyl. only thing that sucks is i wont be able to wear my jacket if i get a job.
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| god its been forever! |
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| crashinxwave's LJ stalker is ! | | is stalking you because they saw your picture and fell in love.. They are also getting jiggy with your best friend! |
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today was cool tiring week but it went by fast so i guess thats good. alots been on my mind too. i saw timy im happy hes one of my really good friends! i know exactly when im going to tell alex about my feelings for him. and what im going to say..anyways yea school is really stressing me out already i really wanna go to lake mary sooo bad id do nething to go there but yea whatever maybe i can...but sunday im gong to the beach yey! and my friend gabe told me tht there are going to be really good waves! score! but yea i just really wanna hangout with alex...the more i hangout with him the more i like him its crazy..but yea his birthday is the 28th he'll 17 and i got him three things but yea im gunna tell him in his birthday card...i hope it works out! ive never thought about a guy like this soo much. but yea we mite be going surfing soon igot to talk about it. i just wanna thank lauren for being tere for me your like my sister already tho dont one i wish i did.. but this wekend is gunna be sad tomorrow i am going to a funeral in daytona...i feel so bad too cause i want to go to the beach after that. guh..and my brother is being kicke dout of the houde i thik cause he hit me last nite three times in the head right when he got home. and my old father at st.peters died he was like a dad to me when i went there when i was little. but yea i hafta go now im hanging out with my friend sara later people.
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| First DaY Of ScHo0L!! |
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Neways so yea today was the first day of school..i had to wait in line for my schedule forever!! grr but finally got it and saw tht the freakin school gave me like three of the same classes i had last year. SO GAY! but yea neways i saw all my friends! lol which was awesome! sum didnt even recognize me cause of my hair and i guess i look different??? but yea it was fun..AloT of my classes seem hard this year specially last period which is health science guh..but today i already am known to be loud in my classes like geometry! i was like i need a tampon and no one had one so i asked my *guy* teacher hehe and he was like i cant help u with tht..so i was like w/e screw this! and i yelled out "DOES NEONE HAVE A TAMPON?" lmao it was great..but yea and i think everyone liked my outfit today too i looked actually u know gurly...but yea even ppl i didnt kno i think liked it cause this one black guy when i was wlakin up to the clinic was all like heyyy gurl..i was just like AHH! but yea..lol newyas id been thinkin of alex all day and wut i should do and i am still thinking bout him lol and about everything thts happened like yesterday and i think i know wut im gunna do but im not gunna say so yea..ttyl dudes! i got my haircut! lol yesterday tooo! well byes..ilovealex..
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today went to church saw alex had a choice of going to burger king with all of the girls in sunday skool but decided to be with alex. didnt know wut to do tho first when i saw him tho he walked up towards me to his mom and i like freaked and left and looked stupid and went to the bathroom..then after all the gurls were gone i went upstairs sat with alex and talked. ionno wut it is about him but i feel so comfortable with him i could tell him all of my secrets cause hes there for me actually and hes been through alotta thingsi have it seems. but yea sumthing strange happened today when we were together and this is the 2nd time its happened. on the way to the beach me and him sat together in the expedition and neways..alex out his hand on mine and i was just played the part and freak like usual and was like ahah u touched me, joanna wouls be like change the story!* and he was just like yea..i dont know what he had in mind but god i wish i hadnt said tht of all things! god..im such an idiot when im around him. and to make it worse going to the beach when he did tht i slapped his hand after tht! godd im mad at myself..but yea today the same thing kinda happened. he was laying against me and then outta nowhere put his hand out by me and was like hey..and i was like in my mind god ionno wut hes doing ..so i gave him a freakin gey highfive?!?wtf is tht? i feel so stupid now..and then the weirdest thing was after i did tht he had his hand still out like expecting to hold my hand GRRR im so confused is he for real? im so not use to im being serious but if he is this is a serious wakeup call i better get in the game b4 he gives up on me. I seriously think I love him...underneath it all theres tht feeling cause ive never felt so guh words cant describe about a guy like him b4..were going to hangout this week tho so maybe ill see wut happens then if i didnt give him the wrong impression and maybe more things can happen once we sort this out..byes guys gotta go im confused lots to think bout but if u were in my position wut would u think ud do? please just give me alil thing of advice..imsoseriouslydumb aobut him...
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alex is the most awesome! guy! ever! hehe yesterday was awesome when me and him hungout and jon and tyler and lauren did too! we had fun then we left for the beach and me and alex were in the expedition together lol fun fun times! and god mustve spent alil more time on me alex! lol haha tht was great ud make a good wannabe nsync boy! lol the day b4 tht was the lockin which was pretty fun jon hurt my ankle tho and yesterday when alex was puttin his arm on it it hurt but i didnt wanna tell him to move his arm lol! im such a dork! but neways b4 the lockin alex and lauren took me home and alex we all hungout which rocked! i think this is the one guy but i dont know...alex u surf so good! jon and tyler i hope ull stop hitting me now..cause yea bout wut i told you bout it. im just worried bout telling alex i was gunna tell him tuesday then joanna who stocks alex literally came into our convo rite b4 we were bout to go on the ferris wheel together along with jon and mac. we got to sit by each other tho. shane haha tht was great bout wut u said bout me and him going to make out everytime wed go get water together like a million times! lol..hmmmm...NEWAYS! school starts in two days god i hate seminole but whatever i cant go to lmhs and i couldve hungout with lauren and alex..whatever tho. im gunna ask alex bout the beach tomorrow cause he was talkin to me about it going over there and he said another thing tht surprised me .."when i went to the beach today i was thinking bout you and going to pick u up but youd say No" i was just like omg! grrr i wouldnt have!!! grrr lol..then the thing bout my room ahha "i always imagined ur room would look like this" lol neways yea its amazing how we r with each other now..we use to hate each other but now we DEFLY DONT! lol later dudes! me and him and lauren r going to hangout probly bye!
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| Yesterday & Today Kikes! |
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yesterday was awesome. my youth group all went and sorted millions of school supplies for lil kids and then after tht thts when it got fun. alex and lauren took me home and we hungout together in my room for bout 2 hours..oo yea alex on my bad wo..haha jk..Not! neways he finally saw me without a jacket...heres how tht happened..ALEX>* ok kendra were not at church nemore just take ur jacket off now* ahah and i did but i wore sum baggy shirts lol..but on was *see through they both noticed lol!! but yea alex saw my surfboard and he said it was a good board actually then when we all went in my room he goes *this is how i imagined your room to look like* hmm kinda makes me wonder..lol but yea we just chilled and tlaked bout like everything from relationships to growing up to hanging out. Those two ppl are awesome! im bout to leave lol n go hangout with them..soo oo yes fun! guarunteed i love being round them two theyre really AWESOME! me and lauren like the same everything which rocks and shes mature so its all good! and alex well yea so um yea..whut can i say hes just plain awesome! but after they left i took a shower and stuff and got ready for the lockin lauren picked me up we left went to sum gas station and the guy was hittin on lauren lol! then we went to church and jonathan almost broke my ankle its still kinda SWOLLEN! grr he needs to die but yea i also went to altamonte mall yesterday after helpin and tht is the nicest mall ever sanfords is gey compared to tht! hollister is officially my favorite store! hah and when we all left alex borrowed these shoes with wheels on em those ones where u can have them on or off and just put in the bottom of your shoe again and he skated it was funny! but yea i love tht mall but i gotta go dudes! me alex lauren tyler and jonathan r gunna chill till tonite then go over to the beach later like round 7...well be back tomorrow round 6 at nite! later dudes!
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| ToPless TuesDay! |
[27 Jul 2004|09:53pm] |
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Today was piamp! alex showed. Anyways so did lauren! shes so awesome and pretty much like a sister to me already she looks after me. Anyways, today started cool me and lauren and rachel rode in the nice car the experdition while everyone rode in what was called the *roach van* for youth week and going to FUN SPOT! anyways i didnt think alex was gunna go and i was kinda like u know wondering y cause he said he was gunna go but then he called lauren! yey! and said he was old time pottery waiting for russ..still, haha...so we stopped by and picked him up and i was happy!! then we got to the park and i was in my ignoring stage where i didnt talk to him too scared..anyways me and lauren hungout most the time and rode the gocarts awhile and man DO I ROCK? lol or at least at sharp turns..but yea it was fun then somehow me and lauren split up for a lil bit. i sat with shane in the jurassic park car thingy for awhile lol cause it was so hott outside and we watched "sara" on the tv shaking the screen as she walked..lol. but then i was all cold so i left and found my own way away from the ppl im sick of hanging out with. i met up with jonathan and tyler and alex and hungout with them alil bit rode gocarts kicked tylers booty! oo yea! on tht one at least, then our legs got tired and we went on a more calm ride..me and alex decided to go on the ferris wheel so did jonathan and mac. then after tht we went over by these other rides and me and alex ended up riding together on this one it was pretty fun cept for when jonathan was all like yea u guys rode together grr jonathan stfu! but yea everyone knows cept for alex of course but when he does findout tomorrow nite i hope he wont freak it wouldve been perfect today if i tld him on the ferris wheel but tht wannabe whore came up and interrupted i was just about to say it..was bout to say alex i gotta tell u sumthing on my mind..but noo of course everything i need to say never gets out. whatever tho then tht whore tried to hangout with me lauren and alex in the arcade..grr and me and lauren both agree thts the only reason she hungout..ALEX whatever i dunno nemore i feel like if i tell him he'll wind up thinkin im pshco and the dumbest girl ever and then hell hate me im just afraid hell act different round me..but i wish hed act like he did at mt top more towards me thts wut made me think of him more and end up thinkin of him in tht way..owellsomuchfornothing. hes too good for me..and he probly prefers joanna way more or neone. he doesnt even care bout me probly..idunnoimjustmadritenow i wanted to hangout with him and jon and tyler but fine its fine byes guys>*uck it* doesnt matter nemore..
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[26 Jul 2004|02:17pm] |
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So yea yesterday was sunday went to church had fun but alex wasnt there he got his wisdom teeth pulled on friday and he's all swollen Gladys told me (his mom) neways yea i needed to talk to him but i guess it can wait till tomorrow when hell be at funspot with me. Lauren will be there too so it should be fun like usual when were together. but yea i was talking to lauren bout him last nite and i didnt know if he trusted me cause of all the other chiks in my youth cause they always gossip and talk about things that arent true but to my relief thank god lauren told me alex liked me and he thinks im way different then the rest of them chiksand i am so yea i cannot wait till tomorrow ill get to see him and hangout and finally talk bout things we both need to figure out. and lauren also told me he tthinks im cool? i was like wo..AWESOME! lol we should take a ride in your truck tomorrow haha tht was soo fun! if only jonathan fell out of the back tho gRrRr lol..but yea i love u guys! lauren u r awesome thanks for helping me sort these things out and alex well yea i just am in love with you..no not really..j/k later dudes! tomorrow is fun spot! wednesday is lockin then thursday and friday is the beach with alex and lauren! later guys and i find out wednesday if im going to LMHS finally! lol yeay! O YEA AND ALEX BRING YOUR SWEATER AGAIN LOL I WANNA WEAR IT AGAIN! HAHA! it smells good lol..not to mention its comfy u can wear my new jacket lol!
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| wow its been awhile! |
[23 Jul 2004|02:04pm] |
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YEA so sry i havent been updating lately been busy lol..i just got back from the best experience in my life seriously, MT.TOP>this mission trip with my church! i met this gurl there myra tht every guy in there called the hott chik>yea guys she was gorgeous but o well james got her! shes from indiana and shes my closest friend already. neways mt top was also awesome cus me and alex became alot closer, and maybe a "lil" too close in sum ppls eyes but w/e...it all began in the week alil bit with me hangin out with myra and no one else and he was like kendras changed she has self esteem?!? well yea i do so get over it u guys! lol all the guys in youth r worried now haha..but neways.yea the trip home from mt top alex..AwesOME! i enjoyed every moment of it!>specially the whole hotel door room thingy we went in together and stayed there..(its tht thing tht has two doors going into the next room we went in there and were locked it is was awesome! lol>but yea and then haha erics swamp ass! lmao and alex yea nice nice package! jonathan hahaha 1 word>lizard eggs!gold bond has become a necessity in my life thanks to all u guys specially alex whoo! lol he taught be how to bond rite. but neways, yea im sry i fell asleep in ur bed alex haha on u haha but u didnt seem to mind so its alll good! good thing u didnt blow one on me tho! lol>but yea hope u feel better babe! cause of today and all later luvs!>kendra
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